My Mom's Birthday....

Saturday is My Mom's 59th Birthday....she'd be turning 59 if she were still alive.....It's weird to think sometimes that she never even made it to 28.....I did have a huge birthday party at my home when I turned 28....most people didn't know this, but it was to celebrate me making it that far in life.....and partly celebrate her giving me this life....since she never made it that far.

I will undoubtedly have a more difficult time of it this year....seems like it's a bit more emotional the older I get.....I wonder why? Isn't it supposed to get easier?

I do have an appointment that I just set this afternoon for that day, so hopefully that will help keep me out of dangerous too emotional territory.....

Happy Early Birthday, Lena (Mommie)!!



**took this pic that last time I brought flowers....earlier this year (2006).....although I don't go often....I wanted a pic.....I feel that she's always with me, so it's not really that I have to go there to see or visit with her....it's the physicality (sp?) of going, that helps my inners.